.doctor wants my kidney to be scanned on the next checkup. they found blood in my urine every time it was tested. they afraid of my kidney got inflammation too.now i disciplined myself to take the medicine as being told.i used to skip this before as i'm afraid of the effect of those drugs on me. but now i'm getting more afraid that my SLE is uncontrollable. i did told the doctor about by serious headache last June. the headache came together with vomit. she said it might be inflammation to the brain. yet they want to focus on my kidney first as i told the headache is just appear recently.
.my phd work is getting better after a year. the path i'm about to take seems more clear. i started minor labwork and i enjoy it. i dont want this disease to be the obstacle of me pursuing what i want in my life.
.ya Allah, sesungguhnya saya bersyukur dengan dugaan yang Kau beri dan saya redha. namun Kau berilah saya peluang untuk bermanfaat lebih lama kepada ibu bapa saya, keluarga saya, agama saya, bangsa saya dan negara saya. berilah peluang untuk saya gembira dan menggembirakan orang di sekeliling saya.
